Moments - navigating more slowly…

I wish you could see what I see.

It's a beautiful day. Out of each of my windows, there's sky, and the mountains. And they're not huge mountains. They're soft mountains we have around here.

This has been too hard so far for me to keep up with the idea that I originally had.

And you know how it is? Things sometimes are hard and then they get easier. Sometimes things are hard and they get harder.

I guess if there's one thing that I hope from being able to offer these moments with you is that you learn something about the process of creation.

And by creation, I don't really just mean creating art or music. I mean just as much creating your life, which really means creating particular moments that you're happy with.

I got a little bit ahead of myself, in the sense that I have a big imagination and I want big things to be true. I dive into them, and then I often fail or go through some period of testing myself to see what it is that I actually can do, or what it is that really matters the most to do.

And of course, the thing that matters the most is to create those moments - to have creative moments, moments that fill you up with some sort of delight or fascination or interest.

“Learning” moments are moments of creation. Everything you learn, everything you realize you've learned, is a moment of creation. And out of that you make things.

You've made your life from 1000s, hundreds of 1000s, millions of little moments of realization.

I have been putting too much weight on the matter of this next 10 years, my next decade, the decade of my 70s, my eighth decade.

What happened was L, my beloved, asked me before my birthday, “Well, how do you feel about being in your 70s?” And I said, “Well, you know, my 60s have really been the best decade of my life, so I feel really excited about moving into my 70s, I think it can be even better.”

And then I made a fucking project out of it! Which is not atypical!

It's just the way my mind works - to turn my ideas into rather large receptacles for all of my passion and creativity and fascination.

…and yet, as I go through this process - saying every day, “This is the 15th. We're on the 22nd of July, which is the 15th day of my next 10 years of creation” - I'm so tired of that!

Already tired of saying what day it is along the way. It just seems irrelevant to my actual life right now.

So what did I do? I got the domain name amomentofcreation.com, and I haven't decided yet what to do with it, but it's possible that tenyearsofcreation.com may point to amomentofcreation.com, or maybe you'll be able to find tenyearsofcreation.com by putting in amomentofcreation.com.

I haven't figured that out yet, but it makes me feel better to have that domain name, because it has already anchored for me the the feeling of what I want to share with you, which is how I create moment to moment, how I'm creating every moment, how I desire to create each moment as something beautiful!

I could go on! And it is not the time for that just yet!

However, I think I've completed this chapter here about the moments of creation and a moment of creation.